Monday, July 11, 2011

OVER-ANALYZING HELLPPPPP!!!!?

ok im so anxious and scared right now i have severe ocd and dont know how to explain this but im going to try my best. Im over analyzing everything i do its been going on for four days now its with language words and emotions sarcasm and jokes. For example how do u explain the word THAT to someone who doesnt speek english you would say "that kid was hyper" the word that in this sentance is describing one specific kid it specifies one thing. Well what i do is if someone says a punchline in a song and this really happend but this song a rapper said you couldnt make a hit with babe ruths bat. The hit meaning a good popular song and u make hits in baseball and babe ruth has alot of hits with his bat. But what ive been doing for the past four days is anylyzing them so much that i dont understand what it means anymore, i do understand but theres so much stress and anxiety its like its blocking me from understanding even though deep down its just i have to explain why i get everything emotions, why i understand english and when the anxiety calms i get happy and everything gets better but im still doing this just not nearly as bad as it was before im just wondering i know this is stress anxiety related because the only reason i have this is because i read symptoms for aspergers i never exhibited any symptoms untill i read the diagnostics for it. I always had alot of friends, socialized, made eye contact, ALWAYSS got sarcasm, jokes, punchlines, plain humor because im the funny one in my friend circle. But ever since i read the list of aspergers them not understanding sarcasm etc. I feel like im losing my ability to understand anything even words my brain isnt procession anything right. And there was one time i got a joke off gaurd like my friend said something and i laughed and it took about 15 seconds for me too realize it was a joke and then the anxiety kicked in and then i forgot how to understand a joke because im constintly trying to explain the joke in my head. Ive never done this before i OBSESS over anything and everything loterly last week it was schizophrenia, going crazy, having a mental illness thats never been seen before, And when the anxiety clears this goes away. I was taking anti-depressants and they were working fine until i stopped 2yrs ago when i was 16. Im thinking of going back on the SSRIs but im just wondering if anybody knows if theyll stop with this over analyzing bullshit.

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